In life you have been wrong so many times that you have lost trust in your own self…OSHO
In life you have been wrong so many times that you have lost trust in your own self.
This is one very basic thing to be understood and relearned: trust in yourself.
When everything is going beautifully and you are feeling happy and blissful, forget what I am saying.
Don't be worried about it.
You know well that things are going well.
Why create suspicion about your own experiences?
I understand that life is such that you have been found wrong so many times that you have lost your inner feel. You have lost trust in yourself.
You have lost confidence, so you have to ask somebody.
Even if you are feeling blissful you have to ask somebody, "Am I going right?" Bliss is the indication.
So now, two are the possibilities: either you are-really feeling blissful as you write in your question — then there is no need to ask me; or you are just imagining and you know it — hence you have asked.
That too has to be decided deep inside you. Because an imagined bliss is no bliss at all. You can imagine.
Man has imagination in abundance. You can imagine things — because I am talking about bliss continuously: about love, about meditation, ecstasy.
You can catch those words and your greed can start playing LEELA with you, rather than you playing LEELA with the divine. Your greed can start playing LEELA with you, and it can give you ideas.
But if they are imaginary you will always be suspicious because deep down you will know that this is just fantasy. If that is the case, then asking is perfectly meaningful.
You have to decide. If it is really happening, you are really happy, it is a fact and you are not imagining it, then you are on the right track — because there is no indication other than blissfulness.
When you feel blissful you are right, moving in exactly the way you should move.
Because bliss increases only when you are approaching closer to God, and in no other way.
If you are going away from God, anguish arises. You feel more and more frustrated, more and more bored, more and more miserable.
Misery is an indication that you are going astray, a natural indication that you have lost track of truth.
Bliss simply says that you are falling in line with the whole. Things are becoming harmonious, the garden of the Beloved is coming closer: the air feels cooler, winds bring the fragrance of the flowers, freshness, a new thrill, a new enthusiasm.
Then you are moving towards the garden of the Beloved.
Maybe you cannot see yet, but the direction is right.
So trust yourself.
But if you are imagining, then drop all your imagination.