When reality starts absorbing you, you become frightened because it looks like death….OSHO
Meditating deeply, when reality starts absorbing you, you become frightened because it looks like death.
It is like death, but it is not death. It is the door to life more abundant, to life infinite and eternal.
But yes, in a way it is death — death to the past, death to you as you are. But then, what are you? Why are you so afraid of dying? You have nothing to lose — only a miserable self, only an imprisonment will be burned down, only the structure of misery and agony will be burned down.
You have nothing to lose.
Why do you go on clinging to it?
But you have become very familiar with it, and you become afraid.
Whenever in deep meditation sometimes, by chance, coincidence, you come close to reality and the reality starts spreading in you, you become afraid and you escape.
Your interpretation has to be dropped.
You have to learn how to listen to the real — so when reality approaches you, welcome it.
If God comes towards you, if you cannot move towards Him, at least don't run away.
And He is coming towards you in millions of ways.
He wants to overpower you, to reclaim you.
It is not only that you are seeking Him; He is also seeking you.
In fact, your seeking is just pseudo.
You talk about seeking God but you don't really mean it.
You would like to find Him by the way.
You don't want to stake anything.
You don't want to pay for it.
You don't want to earn Him.
You would like to get Him free; that is not the way.